You know when you hear a song and it seems to speak to your soul? That was this song for me. While it is a love song, it wasn’t a romantic notion that made my heart swell. It was more than that. This song has a different meaning for me, and relates to our days of infertility. Believe it or not, this mom of three in three years was once considered infertile. And as we miscarried and waited our turn, after congratulating endless friends on their new arrivals, it was hard to be Brave.
How can I love when I’m afraid to fall?
When our first baby boy was growing inside me, there were emotions mixed with fear and joy. It’s scary to love something so much, to have waited so long, to want something soooo bad. I held to Faith.
And all along I believed I would find you
Labour was intense and quick, our midwife told us to stay at the house and raced to us. I shut my eyes.
Every hour has come to this
When I opened my eyes again. I was a Mother. I was changed forever. My baby boys are my world. They fill my whole heart. They were worth the long wait. And on Valentine’s Day, this love song is for them.
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you, for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more.
“A Thousand Years”
(from “The Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn – Part 1″ soundtrack)