You know when you hear a song and it seems to speak to your soul? That was this song for me. While it is a love song, it wasn’t a romantic notion that made my heart swell. It was more than that. This song has a different meaning for me, and relates to our days of infertility. Believe it or not, this mom of three in three years was once considered infertile. And as we miscarried and waited our turn, after congratulating endless friends on their new arrivals, it was hard to be Brave.
How can I love when I’m afraid to fall?
When our first baby boy was growing inside me, there were emotions mixed with fear and joy. It’s scary to love something so much, to have waited so long, to want something soooo bad. I held to Faith.
And all along I believed I would find you
Labour was intense and quick, our midwife told us to stay at the house and raced to us. I shut my eyes.
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
When I opened my eyes again. I was a Mother. I was changed forever. My baby boys are my world. They fill my whole heart. They were worth the long wait. And on Valentine’s Day, this love song is for them.
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you, for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more.
“A Thousand Years”
(from “The Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn – Part 1” soundtrack)
Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave?
How can I love when I’m afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone?
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer
[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more
Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What’s standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer
[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more
One step closer
One step closer
[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more
Beautiful, absolutely beautiful.
Little boys are so worth the wait
“Time has brought your heart to me”
Love that line too! they are so worth the wait!
what a beautiful post
Thanks 🙂
Loved reading this. Simply beautiful!
Thank you
Thank you for sharing! I can totally relate to music influencing your life!
Thanks for sharing this! I love this song, and I, too, can relate so many songs to my life and feelings! This one is perfect for today, for my husband!
I workout to that song. It’s the wind down hip stretching part. So pretty! Love it. It reminds me always of my family and how much I love them and how unwavering my husband’s love is. He’s a keeper. Thick and thin – sickness and health. He is pretty awesome!
that’s so sweet Paula
Now I am wiping tears off my eyes!! Simply beautiful!
What a lovely post m’dere… Love this song!
Songs are God’s special way of touching us! I have a song that was special to me during each of my pregnancies. Also from really hard times of loss and pain.
Song writers have special gifts.
they really do, I love how a song can take on a completely different meaning depending on your life experiences.
Kleenex box right beside me now 🙂 I loved this post because it was so heartfelt. I had no idea that you and your husband had infertility difficulties…and now a Mum of three boys!! Well done 🙂
it’s surprising isn’t it? but definitely worth the wait!
Aww, this made me cry, Jen! It makes me so happy that your waiting was worth it and you have your wonderful boys. 🙂 Happy Valentine’s Day, beautiful!
thanks hon!
Oh my goodness – this song now has a completely different meaning for me! I like it much better now! Can’t wait for my turn…
hang in there hon!
Dang it mama, you made me cry.
Beautiful 🙂
Awwww that’s precious. Babies are worth all the labor. Without a doubt.
You sure do know how to pull at the heart strings!