Mommy Vent

Just taking a moment to vent here because it has been a rough couple of weeks with the boys. Actually the whole month wasn’t so great, maybe it is just post holiday let down. It was sooo great having my husband home for two weeks over the holidays, I loved having a partner in crime, an extra pair of hands, adult conversation throughout the day, someone to lean on…… and now I go it alone, once again, and it’s been frustrating. Does anyone else have a kid that hates to leave places??? because this is one of my biggest battles right now. He has done it since he was a little boy, but back then he was smaller, lighter and the only child so I could just pick him up and carry him out and it wasn’t half as bad. Now he is bigger, heavier and one of three kids! I can’t pick him up, my hand are full already! fuller than full! It’s really at the point that I cannot even go to our local playgroup anymore, which is a real disappointment because sometimes it is our only outting of the week, plus it’s not fair to the other boys- or me! He’s really good to go places, he’s excited, and he does great when we are there, he’s well-behaved, he’s going potty wherever we are, he participates in circle and with the other kids are playgroup, BUT he will not leave nicely!!! He runs around the room, he won’t listen, he won’t put his coat and boots on etc etc etc. He’s loud, he’s embarrassing, he makes a big scene and I hate it! Prior to this week when we went to playgroup, the last one was the Christmas party so he really was upset about leaving that and once I finally got all three kids and myself out the door, he started to run around in the parking lot!!!!! yikes!!! HUGE safety issue now, and my hands are tied because I have an 18mo and a baby in a stroller with me! I can’t just leave them in the parking lot to chase Big Brother around! I’m practically in tears every time we leave and I’m sooo embarrassed I swear we will never go again. I don’t know what to do. I give him the mini lecture before we go, and in the van on the way there. He gives me the ‘yup, okay mom, I’ll be good, I’ll leave when you say’ speach. I give him warnings leading up to home time that it is coming so he won’t be surprised. I point out that all the other kids are leaving too and he’s not missing out on anything. He just doesn’t respond and he doesn’t care if I give him the ultimatums that we won’t come again, or he’ll have to go to his room when we get home etc. etc.This week I ended up taking him to the van without his winter gear on first and went back in for the little boys (I had another mom keep an eye on them for me) he was probably cold, but it’s a natural consequence right?  I hate thinking that everyone is watching us, I hate that other moms try to help, I hate feeling like I cannot care for my children, I hate that he puts himself and the others in a dangerous situation, and most of all I hate that I come home hating him. Why does he have to ruin a perfectly good morning. There are so few things I can even do with one of me and three of them. I will not go very many places alone with all of them because of the safety issue, and this is one thing that I should be able to manage! GRRRRR…….
So there’s my mommy rant for the day…..now breathe….one, two three….breathe…..